Dearest readers, what can I say?
I've seen people sue these blogs as a way of telling people how they're feeling, what they're doing or how sucky/fantastic life is for them.
Right now, if I'm honest, I feel nothing.
Yeah, I know right, depressing?
Not really. At the moment everyone is freaking and 'bricking' what ever that may mean about those life changing results but I think I'm the exception. I feel no anxiety or fear or pessimism, negativity worry. But you can count on me to try to sleep tonight and suddenly think ''holy crap. I've failed, I know I have. I'm going to work in tescos or a greasy spoon for the rest of my life. I'll bring shitty kids up on a council estate and their names will be Kenzo or Sabrina. Fuck.'' Wouldn't that be typical? I have dreams, real dreams, when I'm asked what I do as a career and I'll say something like ''I'm training to be a war craft engineer..yes, its a very specialised occupation.'' or ''I work for the President of the US and a translator...I speak Lithuanian and Russian as well as French, German and Sign language.'' Ha, one time I dreamt I was a stunt woman doing motorbike stunts? I wouldn't last 5 minutes doing that sort of thing. Thanks Mr Sandman, crush a girls hopes.
Yeah, I wish huh?
It's all up to me I suppose.
I want to be the best there ever was. Ever will be. I can dream.
As the famous cartoon pig once said ''D-D-D-That-Thats's all folks''
The Gingersaurus xx
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